Sex-A sneak peek

1 06 2013

A sneak peek into a documentary that I would like to do and am hoping to get an “ok” on to do.


The act of sex is a very private matter, however the temptation of and falling into sexual sin needs to be a open matter. I myself as stated before in this blog have had a struggle to porn. This is a consent struggle for me as a believer in Jesus Christ. However, I have another reason to write this instead of talking about my struggles which I have already done before. My issue is with the Church (Body of Believers) as a whole. We as the church(Body of Believers) need to be open about these struggles in everyday life. Struggle that face everyone everyday. My struggle with porn is not an isolated case that is one in a million, but rather this is something that every church(building) has a member struggling with. I’m not just talking about struggles with porn but struggles with all types of sexual sin, lust, fornication, masturbation, homosexuality or even adultery. All of these are things that in general we want to keep to ourselves because it is related to having or thinking of sex. The Church (Body of Believers) needs to be opened about these matter because lives can depend on it. There are people in the church (building) that have these struggles but don’t want to tell anyone about it because they are afraid of being judged. When in reality there is someone else there that can possible help then though the struggle and maybe even lead them to Christ which will help them even more in this daily battle that we all as humans face.


Two Hearts

27 03 2013

We have two hearts. The Physical one that pumps blood and then the “Heart” Which er both use everyday.

I had open heart surgery on April 22nd 1998 when I was just 11 years old. I didnt know who God or Jesus was. I mean I heard of them but by no means did I have a relationship with Him.

So often we entrust our physical well being including our heart to God weather we trust that he will provide the right doctors to help or if it is just a supernatural healing.

However I do know that I have a tough time entrusting God with my “heart” I know He can heal me physically, but I feel like I have a tough time entrusting Him to heal my emotional heart. I have tried many things to fell this void in my heart. From porn, women, gambling, shopping(Yes, I love to shop) and even just hanging out with friends. Some of these things are sin and others aren’t but ALL are substitutes for the spot in my “heart” that is meant for God. I think of my heart like a puzzle. If you have the right pieces than it fits perfectly. God is the outer edges of the the puzzle that holds everything in and if we try to make those edges out of something else we don’t end up with a heart but just a jumble of mess.

God can heal our “Hearts” no matter what has happened to it in the past. If we were abused both psychically and emotionally or if we have have been the abuser and have a tough time forgiven ourselves, God can heal it all. We are not bound by our past unless we dwell on the past. We cannot change the past, just the future. We just need to put all our trust in Him, the one that saved us and the one that loves us.

I feel like this happens to a lot of people besides just myself. We may not be living in Sin but we aren’t allowing God to occupy the places He belongs.

Random Struggle

21 01 2013

I cannot tell anyone how many times this week I have heard “Trust in the Lord with all your heart lean not on your own understanding but in all your ways acknowledge him; and he will direct your path.” It’s like GOD I get it.  I’m trying, what part of my life am I not acknowledging you?  OHHHH That part yeah I don’t want to.  Yeah that is my only fun. Oh wait what? I cant have you all until you have me all.  That doesn’t seem right.  Why is that? Oh because you made me, sorry but that’s not good enough for me.