Two Hearts

27 03 2013

We have two hearts. The Physical one that pumps blood and then the “Heart” Which er both use everyday.

I had open heart surgery on April 22nd 1998 when I was just 11 years old. I didnt know who God or Jesus was. I mean I heard of them but by no means did I have a relationship with Him.

So often we entrust our physical well being including our heart to God weather we trust that he will provide the right doctors to help or if it is just a supernatural healing.

However I do know that I have a tough time entrusting God with my “heart” I know He can heal me physically, but I feel like I have a tough time entrusting Him to heal my emotional heart. I have tried many things to fell this void in my heart. From porn, women, gambling, shopping(Yes, I love to shop) and even just hanging out with friends. Some of these things are sin and others aren’t but ALL are substitutes for the spot in my “heart” that is meant for God. I think of my heart like a puzzle. If you have the right pieces than it fits perfectly. God is the outer edges of the the puzzle that holds everything in and if we try to make those edges out of something else we don’t end up with a heart but just a jumble of mess.

God can heal our “Hearts” no matter what has happened to it in the past. If we were abused both psychically and emotionally or if we have have been the abuser and have a tough time forgiven ourselves, God can heal it all. We are not bound by our past unless we dwell on the past. We cannot change the past, just the future. We just need to put all our trust in Him, the one that saved us and the one that loves us.

I feel like this happens to a lot of people besides just myself. We may not be living in Sin but we aren’t allowing God to occupy the places He belongs.

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HELP

2 02 2013

I haven’t said anything on either of my blogs about this because well really I didn’t think about it.  Anyways I felt called to go on a mission trip my College is putting on.  The trip is to Thessaloniki, Greece on May 9th until the 23rd. On the trip we will be doing many things such as doing a protest for A21 which is a nonprofit sex trafficking awareness and prevention organization, doing a coffee shop ministry (sitting down with Greek college students to help with their English), and also going to a Roma (gypsy) camp to spend time with the children.

I have never been on a mission trip before and I am really looking forward to this.  As of right now I am in need of two things 1st Prayer and 2nd financial help.  The whole trip cost $2,900 and right now I need $1,475(1st half) on Feb 21st for the 1st deadline.  That is right as of right now I’ve only raised $25 towards the trip.  If you are able to help, it would be GREATLY APPRECIATED.  Southeastern University is a non-profit organization and when you donate at https://www.seu.edu/forms/giving.php (in the comments please make sure you write “Greece-Eric Fifield”) you will be able to deduct any donation you made on your taxes.

Any and all help both financial and prayer is appreciated.  I know my God will provide because I truly believe that he has called me to this trip.  I know most people that read this will not know me personally but if read some of my other blogs than you will know what I have been though and the fact that God is using me is a miracle in itself and so I must believe in this miracle that He will provide.  Please consider this.  Thanks and God Bless.