Most Random Ive Been

17 01 2014
This is my random blog post of the week.  It will not make sense but then again I am senseless. 1st I would like to give my respects to Russell Johnson AKA The Professor from Gilligan’s Island who passes away. 2nd I was told by my boss “I like the new and improved Eric.”  Today was my 1st day back in over a month and I had to close which I had only done once before.  I would like to say that it was all because I kick butt but it does help when management helps you out.
I don’t know what tomorrow holds but I hope it is going to be great.  I don’t know what the rest of the week hold I hope it will be great as well. And I hope the rest of the month will be WONDERFUL.
I was thinking the other day how many people actually know who I am yet I do not know them…Almost one time every week someone tells me they know me and I leave still having no clue who they are.  On that note…I know that a lot of people like me and there is only a few that don’t.  Regardless if you like me or hate I am me.  I will not change based on who I am around or what I am doing.  I have “groups” that like me but they would never get along with another “group” that likes me (I don’t know if that makes sense). 
I am hoping this is going to be a year of 1st for me.
God Bless and Enjoy this New Year.  

Road Trip?

4 01 2014

This is the journey ahead of me.  I know where my finish line is but I have no idea how to get there.  I have my GPS to guide me along the way and I have check points, because this journey is too long to get down in one day.  Road blocks might come and detours might need to be taken, and tolls to be paid.  Oh I’m sorry, did you think I was talking about the trip I am making to Florida?  I am taken, but I am talking about the trip that is being a follower of Christ.  My journey will take my whole life.  The finish line is Heaven and the GPS is Christ.  Check points exist because I get called all over the place.  Road blocks because the Devil is on the prowl and detours for when I fall.  Tolls because there is a cost of following The Almighty.   That cost of leaving those we love and leaving our wills at the starting line.

Sex-A sneak peek

1 06 2013

A sneak peek into a documentary that I would like to do and am hoping to get an “ok” on to do.


The act of sex is a very private matter, however the temptation of and falling into sexual sin needs to be a open matter. I myself as stated before in this blog have had a struggle to porn. This is a consent struggle for me as a believer in Jesus Christ. However, I have another reason to write this instead of talking about my struggles which I have already done before. My issue is with the Church (Body of Believers) as a whole. We as the church(Body of Believers) need to be open about these struggles in everyday life. Struggle that face everyone everyday. My struggle with porn is not an isolated case that is one in a million, but rather this is something that every church(building) has a member struggling with. I’m not just talking about struggles with porn but struggles with all types of sexual sin, lust, fornication, masturbation, homosexuality or even adultery. All of these are things that in general we want to keep to ourselves because it is related to having or thinking of sex. The Church (Body of Believers) needs to be opened about these matter because lives can depend on it. There are people in the church (building) that have these struggles but don’t want to tell anyone about it because they are afraid of being judged. When in reality there is someone else there that can possible help then though the struggle and maybe even lead them to Christ which will help them even more in this daily battle that we all as humans face.

Two Hearts

27 03 2013

We have two hearts. The Physical one that pumps blood and then the “Heart” Which er both use everyday.

I had open heart surgery on April 22nd 1998 when I was just 11 years old. I didnt know who God or Jesus was. I mean I heard of them but by no means did I have a relationship with Him.

So often we entrust our physical well being including our heart to God weather we trust that he will provide the right doctors to help or if it is just a supernatural healing.

However I do know that I have a tough time entrusting God with my “heart” I know He can heal me physically, but I feel like I have a tough time entrusting Him to heal my emotional heart. I have tried many things to fell this void in my heart. From porn, women, gambling, shopping(Yes, I love to shop) and even just hanging out with friends. Some of these things are sin and others aren’t but ALL are substitutes for the spot in my “heart” that is meant for God. I think of my heart like a puzzle. If you have the right pieces than it fits perfectly. God is the outer edges of the the puzzle that holds everything in and if we try to make those edges out of something else we don’t end up with a heart but just a jumble of mess.

God can heal our “Hearts” no matter what has happened to it in the past. If we were abused both psychically and emotionally or if we have have been the abuser and have a tough time forgiven ourselves, God can heal it all. We are not bound by our past unless we dwell on the past. We cannot change the past, just the future. We just need to put all our trust in Him, the one that saved us and the one that loves us.

I feel like this happens to a lot of people besides just myself. We may not be living in Sin but we aren’t allowing God to occupy the places He belongs.


2 02 2013

I haven’t said anything on either of my blogs about this because well really I didn’t think about it.  Anyways I felt called to go on a mission trip my College is putting on.  The trip is to Thessaloniki, Greece on May 9th until the 23rd. On the trip we will be doing many things such as doing a protest for A21 which is a nonprofit sex trafficking awareness and prevention organization, doing a coffee shop ministry (sitting down with Greek college students to help with their English), and also going to a Roma (gypsy) camp to spend time with the children.

I have never been on a mission trip before and I am really looking forward to this.  As of right now I am in need of two things 1st Prayer and 2nd financial help.  The whole trip cost $2,900 and right now I need $1,475(1st half) on Feb 21st for the 1st deadline.  That is right as of right now I’ve only raised $25 towards the trip.  If you are able to help, it would be GREATLY APPRECIATED.  Southeastern University is a non-profit organization and when you donate at (in the comments please make sure you write “Greece-Eric Fifield”) you will be able to deduct any donation you made on your taxes.

Any and all help both financial and prayer is appreciated.  I know my God will provide because I truly believe that he has called me to this trip.  I know most people that read this will not know me personally but if read some of my other blogs than you will know what I have been though and the fact that God is using me is a miracle in itself and so I must believe in this miracle that He will provide.  Please consider this.  Thanks and God Bless.

Ghosts or Demons

21 01 2013

When I was about 15 years old, I was vacuuming the hallway and when I looked in my bedroom there was a little blonde haired boy, I’m guess about 8 or 9, standing at the foot of my bed.  I jumped around and when I looked back I didn’t see anything.  I even looked to see if there was something there that would make me imagine a blonde haired boy, sure enough nothing.  I instantly started crying in fear.

Now I was 25 and now on my own going to school in Florida.  One night I looked up from my bed and I saw this really dark demonic shadow woman standing at the kitchen counter looking at me.  I started praying out of fear and “she” went away as I fall back asleep.  I know that this was not an extension of a dream or anything like that.

Can someone that is a Christian, like myself, believe in Ghost? Is it “ungodly” to believe in such things?  I think not.  I feel that there are demons for show i.e. the woman at my counter but I also believe that there are Ghosts that are lost.  I will defend this belief until God himself tells me other wise.  I know what the Bible says but to me it is not 100% clear.  I would someday like to go on a real “Ghost Hunt” to see if I can get answers.  For all I know every “Ghost” is a Demon.  I really don’t know but I would like to find out.

Feel free to leave comments and any thoughts you have.

Random Struggle

21 01 2013

I cannot tell anyone how many times this week I have heard “Trust in the Lord with all your heart lean not on your own understanding but in all your ways acknowledge him; and he will direct your path.” It’s like GOD I get it.  I’m trying, what part of my life am I not acknowledging you?  OHHHH That part yeah I don’t want to.  Yeah that is my only fun. Oh wait what? I cant have you all until you have me all.  That doesn’t seem right.  Why is that? Oh because you made me, sorry but that’s not good enough for me.